Lost In The Grind

For those of you who are somewhat regular readers of this sorry excuse of a blog, first let me say, thank you for taking time out of your day to even consider what I have to share worth reading.  Next, let me say, no, I am not completely leaving WoW in the dust…that damn game has had such a stranglehold on me for such a long time it has become part of me or the other way around…whatever the case I can’t say if I will be taking a break for an extended period of time or for a short while.  Of course these things never are concrete, especially for myself, I consider myself a pretty straight forward, by the rules sort of guy, well, that is mostly superficial and underneath if you dig down behind the front you might find something else.  Not trying to get all weird or anything just trying to express what is going on with me.

Let me go back a bit and share a little about my life.  First of all I have a somewhat busy job, being active duty air force isn’t exactly a cakewalk, this all depends on your job, who you work for and all that, but for myself ever since I went back to what you could call the “9-5″ shift, which in reality is actually getting up at 5 am and getting home usually at 5:30 pm…anyway, I am in a supervisor position, and with that I have found myself very busy, and I like being busy.  There is nothing worse than just sitting at a desk all day staring at a screen with nothing to do, just counting the minutes as they go by.  But because of or perhaps in conjunction with that I have found myself shifting my priorities in the rest of my life.  You see, I have never been one of those guys who are “ate up” and I do not kiss anyone’s ass just to get an advantage.  I do my job to the best of my ability and that’s it.  Now how does all this relate to gaming?  Well, in case you aren’t aware I was in a pretty deep depression for a while over the winter and I found myself escaping into the digital world more and more as a way to cope with my inability to deal with it.  I made a lot of good friends in this digital world, some of them actually really helped me during this time.  The key to all of it though is my wife.  Without her I wouldn’t be the person I am today.  No matter what I do or say she has always been by my side and loved me.

Of course, finding balance in all things is essential to a healthy life.  But when you have an addictive personality such as myself this simple thing becomes a monster if you let it take over.  So, yes, the World of Warcraft became my second life and for a while was my only life besides work.  So, I passed on the guild leader position of the Soul Bound guild to someone I trust and have full faith in and am taking a break from it with plans on returning when the Wrath of the Lich King comes out.

What am I doing now?  Well, if anyone who has been around my blog for a while knows, I also play Lord of the Rings Online.  So I went ahead and reinstalled it and renewed my subscription with the plan of only playing occasionally as a way to relax and have some fun.  After all that is what playing video games is all about.