Lost In The Grind

Not sure what you would call it, but I kind of feel bad about my lack of posting here.  It’s not due to a lack of ideas or things that are in my head, believe me, a combination of things are at fault; first, and the most irritating thing is that “The Man” has finally blocked access to this site from work…it seems that I get the blogging itch while on the clock more than at home…all the others reasons don’t really matter, mostly taking the time out of the day to sit down and just write something down that people might find worth reading…

Anyway, enough about old stuff, summer is here, I have been enjoying it, walking the dogs, sweating my ass off out in the yard.  About to take some time off to spend with the kids, i am really looking forward to that.

Work is work, never ending, just when you think things suck they have a funny way of turning around…long story, not something I feel like sharing at this time, check back another day…

I got new tires for my car, I had no idea how much a difference new tires can make.  I actually enjoy driving now.

I apologize for my jumping from subject to subject, bear with me, I am out of practice…

Our house is slowly, I stress slowly, coming together, the never ending list of things to do is actually down to a single page.  There is light at the end of the tunnel after all.

I went back to Lord of the Rings Online, it lasted 30 days and I just wasn’t feeling it, so I am back in WoW, focusing on playing my shadow priest, Rekkr, when I find time of course.

The new PC is running like a champ, no issues with it at all…knock on wood…until next time friends, have fun out there!

For those of you who are somewhat regular readers of this sorry excuse of a blog, first let me say, thank you for taking time out of your day to even consider what I have to share worth reading.  Next, let me say, no, I am not completely leaving WoW in the dust…that damn game has had such a stranglehold on me for such a long time it has become part of me or the other way around…whatever the case I can’t say if I will be taking a break for an extended period of time or for a short while.  Of course these things never are concrete, especially for myself, I consider myself a pretty straight forward, by the rules sort of guy, well, that is mostly superficial and underneath if you dig down behind the front you might find something else.  Not trying to get all weird or anything just trying to express what is going on with me.

Let me go back a bit and share a little about my life.  First of all I have a somewhat busy job, being active duty air force isn’t exactly a cakewalk, this all depends on your job, who you work for and all that, but for myself ever since I went back to what you could call the “9-5″ shift, which in reality is actually getting up at 5 am and getting home usually at 5:30 pm…anyway, I am in a supervisor position, and with that I have found myself very busy, and I like being busy.  There is nothing worse than just sitting at a desk all day staring at a screen with nothing to do, just counting the minutes as they go by.  But because of or perhaps in conjunction with that I have found myself shifting my priorities in the rest of my life.  You see, I have never been one of those guys who are “ate up” and I do not kiss anyone’s ass just to get an advantage.  I do my job to the best of my ability and that’s it.  Now how does all this relate to gaming?  Well, in case you aren’t aware I was in a pretty deep depression for a while over the winter and I found myself escaping into the digital world more and more as a way to cope with my inability to deal with it.  I made a lot of good friends in this digital world, some of them actually really helped me during this time.  The key to all of it though is my wife.  Without her I wouldn’t be the person I am today.  No matter what I do or say she has always been by my side and loved me.

Of course, finding balance in all things is essential to a healthy life.  But when you have an addictive personality such as myself this simple thing becomes a monster if you let it take over.  So, yes, the World of Warcraft became my second life and for a while was my only life besides work.  So, I passed on the guild leader position of the Soul Bound guild to someone I trust and have full faith in and am taking a break from it with plans on returning when the Wrath of the Lich King comes out.

What am I doing now?  Well, if anyone who has been around my blog for a while knows, I also play Lord of the Rings Online.  So I went ahead and reinstalled it and renewed my subscription with the plan of only playing occasionally as a way to relax and have some fun.  After all that is what playing video games is all about.

Yep, I am still here.  I had a long….no, not long, more like, unnecessarily long days during the damn airshow here…it went off without any major accidents or incidents…one thing to note though…somehow a pile of poo ended up on one of the metro buses…no clue who would be crapping their pants on a public bus, but I guess they couldn’t hold it…other than that, yeah, things were hectic and the blue angels did their thing…so all is well in the world.

Not only was I putting in 15 hour days working, but my wife was back in South Dakota for her sisters’ wedding, so the poor dogs got to sit at home all alone all day…luckily they didn’t leave me any messes or tear anything up…

The cyberpowerpc has been shipped as of yesterday, scheduled to arrive at my doorstep on 28 May courtesy of Fedex…fingers are crossed it comes in one piece and there aren’t any major issues when I plug it in and fire it up.

As far as gaming goes, I haven’t had much time to do much besides play my hunter, Giznad, he has been neglected for quite a while, I have primarily been focusing on doing dailys for gold and battlegrounds for some gear, also joined up on a 2vs2 arena team, we won 1 out of 10…better than I figured we would do…give me a break, I have yet to get a single piece of pvp epic gear…so shoot me!  Also, I took up leatherworking as his primary profession since he has maxed out skinning, it made sense, I spent over 100 gold getting leather off the AH, it will take time, but eventually I hope to get to the point where I can craft my own armor to wear.

Oh yeah, finally getting some much needed time off, big 4 day weekend coming up…woohoo!  I just wish my new machine was here to enjoy it…oh well, 6 more days!

Here is one of those posts where I talk about how I don’t share too much going on my life and how no matter what is said or done the only thing capable of making changes in my life is me.  Searching my heart and seeing where things have gone because of things I have or haven’t done has made me realize how lucky I am to be married to my wife.  Letting go of things that I have held to tightly has given me freedom to see things differently.

I am once again feeling the burnout of WoW, like so many other people out there, it seems to be an endless cycle with no end in sight.  I am constantly chasing the proverbial carrot on a stick only occasionally getting a nibble which only increases my appetite and leaves me frustrated.  Don’t get me wrong I have made friends in my adventures and I find my escape in this world, but when it comes down to it, they cannot replace what I already have right here at home…

Don’t get me wrong, I am not giving up, but I am going to be cutting back my gaming time quite a bit.